It's those days where you suddenly have a rush of emotions, missing the people around you that you ever so slightly took for granted of. And yes, today, now, I miss my dad a lot.
I still remember those days when i was young..I would always crawl under his comforter while he is bathing, pretending that I wasn't there. Obviously he knows, and he would come out saying, ooh..I wonder where's tat-tat? Then he would come on the bed tickling me and all..those were the days I would very much crave for more now..
I also always remember that I loved helping my dad washing his cars..I was never the child who would say no to an activity with my dad when I was young. My dad may be a really strict person, but under that strict face, is someone so caring, so passionate, and someone who just knows when to make his kids happy, and when to make them feel good. My dad really loved us..
When I was much younger, I always loved eating Baskin Robins with my dad, its a luxury for us, cause my dad don't really like spending money on food like that, but the thing is, he still brings me there, let me pick my fav, and we'll just sit there enjoying our luxurious ice cream., watching the world go by. I remember it especially well when he brings me to Subang Parade for it.
But as I grow older, and as my dad age, we do less of the things I would regard as 'happy memories', and if I had a chance to be young and have so much nice memories with him again, I would.
Lately, I know how hurt my dad would be, and how sad he would be now. Because me and my sister both gowned up a lot..old enough to live our own lives he would say. But the thing is, I still Love my dad very much, that even though I'm not there physically all the time to spend some time with him, I still supports, love and also think about him all the time. Thinking if he'd had his lunch? , how was his work today?, what did he dream of yesterday?...
My dad gone through a lot in his life, not an easy life I would say...and he would sacrifice so much just for the comfort of our family..To provide his wife with his irredeemable and undying love, to provide me and my sister the education that would lead us to a better life and leaping us to a brighter future, and to also provide us food and shelter that only a capable man like him would..
I just want to apologize that I have neglected the family for awhile, with my Internship, my Uni work, my love life, my social life. And how foolish for me to not being able to plan my time better so that I could accommodate all of the above + my family. A pastor once said, 'Don't put activities you don't have time for, out of your plan. But instead, try to make a time for everything.' and yes dad, I would.
I don't know how much more I could write to ever reflect the amount of love that you have generously planted in all of our hearts. But dad, after god, you and mom are the people I loved, and respects most. Just so you know, I still love you guys, as much, if not more, as the first day I was born. The day I opened my eyes to see the faces that brought me into this world. Your role in my life are the first word I spoke. And forevermore, it would stay like that, and forevermore, I would love you guys.
I still remember those days when i was young..I would always crawl under his comforter while he is bathing, pretending that I wasn't there. Obviously he knows, and he would come out saying, ooh..I wonder where's tat-tat? Then he would come on the bed tickling me and all..those were the days I would very much crave for more now..
I also always remember that I loved helping my dad washing his cars..I was never the child who would say no to an activity with my dad when I was young. My dad may be a really strict person, but under that strict face, is someone so caring, so passionate, and someone who just knows when to make his kids happy, and when to make them feel good. My dad really loved us..
When I was much younger, I always loved eating Baskin Robins with my dad, its a luxury for us, cause my dad don't really like spending money on food like that, but the thing is, he still brings me there, let me pick my fav, and we'll just sit there enjoying our luxurious ice cream., watching the world go by. I remember it especially well when he brings me to Subang Parade for it.
But as I grow older, and as my dad age, we do less of the things I would regard as 'happy memories', and if I had a chance to be young and have so much nice memories with him again, I would.
Lately, I know how hurt my dad would be, and how sad he would be now. Because me and my sister both gowned up a lot..old enough to live our own lives he would say. But the thing is, I still Love my dad very much, that even though I'm not there physically all the time to spend some time with him, I still supports, love and also think about him all the time. Thinking if he'd had his lunch? , how was his work today?, what did he dream of yesterday?...
My dad gone through a lot in his life, not an easy life I would say...and he would sacrifice so much just for the comfort of our family..To provide his wife with his irredeemable and undying love, to provide me and my sister the education that would lead us to a better life and leaping us to a brighter future, and to also provide us food and shelter that only a capable man like him would..
I just want to apologize that I have neglected the family for awhile, with my Internship, my Uni work, my love life, my social life. And how foolish for me to not being able to plan my time better so that I could accommodate all of the above + my family. A pastor once said, 'Don't put activities you don't have time for, out of your plan. But instead, try to make a time for everything.' and yes dad, I would.
I don't know how much more I could write to ever reflect the amount of love that you have generously planted in all of our hearts. But dad, after god, you and mom are the people I loved, and respects most. Just so you know, I still love you guys, as much, if not more, as the first day I was born. The day I opened my eyes to see the faces that brought me into this world. Your role in my life are the first word I spoke. And forevermore, it would stay like that, and forevermore, I would love you guys.
~A special dedication to my dad, and also to my mom, thank you for always being there for me ~
~I would always love and respect you guys~
~Thanks for being role models in my life~
~I would always love and respect you guys~
~Thanks for being role models in my life~
Love,
Your Son
Your Son
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I've always seen these affections in you bud, I enjoy seeing a family like yours. Accidentally click on "tat's anatomy" then I scroll down to see the latest post, and here I am.
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